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Paranoid??!

hayy.. di ko alm kng bkit b gnito pkirmdam ko ngaun s mga nangyyri sa buhay ko..

i dont know wat wil i should resolve first..

studies, friends, sa bahay at lalo n ang lovelife...

huhuhu..ewan ko b bkit knkbahan ako sa mga susunod na magyyri sa buhay ko lalo n pgdting s knya?? is this a sign na mssktan n nman ba ako?? sbihin n hnd nga kmi..pro we treat one another as special pro bkit b mxado ako ngaalala n bka bmalik ang nrrmdamn nya s una nya mnhal?huhuhu..ouchyness un ha!! pro kelngan ko pghandaan un.

well, f we r not really meant for each other then accept it khit mskit..sbi mging sensitiv dw ako s knya.. s 22o lng sensitiv aq s knya, pro im trying not to entertain un kc nhihiya ako at im afraid n msktan kc e..

ewan ko b..bkit b ako gnito..ang engs ko tlga..kya nga paranoid n e..help me..pls.... gusto ko xa tanungin sa mga bgay2 lalo n s past nya mnhal..kya lng im afraid nga bka msktan ako s mririnig ko..

hayy..bkit b gnito..naiiyak na ako..nhhrapan na ako s sitwasyon ko na 2..mxado ko n ata xa minahal kya gnito ako mgisip..huhuhu.. aykp na tlga!! pro mxado dmi nglalaro sa isip ko at this moment..

pro bhala na..dapat mging brave n lng.. pkatatag n lng s lhat ng bgay..lalo n s mangyyri sa amin someday.. either gud or bad.. happy or sad..pro bsta!! o my god!! help me pls....

Fall For You

There's a right or wrong to know for everything
And the truth is somewhere written in between
But there's always something missing in the dark
There you'll find the true condition of the heart

Well, I can visualize the pieces of a dream,
And it's not as far away as it may seem
But if truth be told, it is you that holds the key
To the question that defines my destiny

I've been in love, a time or two
I've seen the world, when i'm with you
I wanna fly and spread my wings
I don't wanna cry, I wanna sing
I wanna live and take a chance
I'm not afraid to love again
I wanna fall, fall for you
And I want you to fall for me too

I've hadplenty conversations with my heart
Coz I want this thing to work, not fall apart
So, I ask my heart how it can be so sure
And it answers me because your heart is pure

I have every expectation that is true
Coz my heart won't lie to me, much less to you
But if truth be told, it is you that holds the key
To the future that becomes our destiny

Unto the mountain snow that melts into the stream
My heart goes like a river to sea
To the heavens up above,
I pray to God our destiny is love

a day to remember...

hmmm...

valentine's day??

a short time to spent with a speacial person, but a day dat a person will cherish forever..hahaha!!!

love isn't strange?? sometimes he's der to fil ur emptiness and sometyms, he's der to leave you in pain...

but one thing in common about love is dat it makes you complete whether ur hapi or not.. stil, it makes you complete..bsta gnun yun..hehehe..

may nalaman ako quotation about love knina hbang nsa duty ako s student affairs.. khit corny, meaningful xa at it exists in reality tlga.. at eto un...

" to the world, you might be one person but to one person, you might be the world ".... hahahaha!! ang corny noh?? pro 22o un..lalo n s mga taong in-love..(ako b un?)hahaha..

hayyy..whether u hav a partner or none at all today, ok lng yn.. juz enjoy lyf with other pipol hu loves u..lyk a frend hu truly loves u..hehehe..

i fell so complete 2day khit n wla aq chuva jan..hehehe.. kc im contented to hav a special friend who is always der to guide, protect and accept me for who i am..hayyy..

khit sobrang mhal m n ang isng tao, pro pg its not yet the ryt tym for both of u to express freely wat u fil, hnd p rn pwd e.. u hav to wait for that ryt time in a ryt place..wh00oo0o0o0o0o0o0.. grabe na 'to! hahaha!! bsta..all things fall into its place through tym.. well, if he's not for me accept it, maybe ders a reason behind it... khit OUCH un n hnd pla kau s bndang huli..sobrang nghntay ka ng ryt tym, tpos wla rn pla..hayy..

kya nga wen u love, der is always d risk to be hurt by d person who loves you very much..pro bsta.. bhala n c papa lord kng cno tlga nkalaan pra ckin..hahaha..

kng destined to be single 4ever, y not? accept it..at very free ka p mkpaglandi dun noh..hahahaa!!

well, dats lyf..dats the magic of love...

My first love....

Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How i want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How i wish i could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, i believe i can never find
Somebody like you
My first love

Once in a while
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the warmth of your embrace
And i pray that it will all come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how i want here to be with you
Once more

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How i wish i could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, i believe i could never find
Somebody like you
My first love

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How i wish i could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, i believe i could never find
Now and forever

dats life!!!

wat a day 2day!! sobrang dami ko iniicp s mga panahon.. may masa2ya but still they r not permanent.. mga simpleng kaligayahn pra lng mkalimot khit segundo s mga pressures, "kabiguan" at "pain" n nraramdm..

well, pano ko b 2 uumpishn? hahaha..grabe..ngaun lng aq ulit ngpost d2..gngnahan lng nman aq mgpost pg my dnramdm n dpat khit papano mailabas..cge n nga isa-isahin ko nangyyri s buhay ko ngaun..

Una, mejo nppgod n rn aq s activity ng org nmin..huhu.. mnsan prang tntmad n aq kc iniicp ko dn ung studis ko.gus2 nman bgyan ng full attention dun kc gus2 ko mkbwi ngaun..pro on d other "angel" side, i juz take it as a chalenj on how to manage my time lalo p nrrmdaman ko may parating n mlaking responsibilidad ang ngaabang s year n 2..kaya ko b un??hayyy.. Papa Lord, help me..huhuhu..

pngalawa, bkit gnun..hirap tlga mgmahal??i always have dis fear n msktan pgngmahal..at e2 n nga unti2 ko n nrrmdamn.. falling in-love is juz a temporary hapines??tama b? e kc di ko maintndhan tlga kng ano b tlga ibg sbhin ng lhat ng actions nya 2wards me..sobrang npupuzzle aq.. den i found out n mhal nya p rn un..hayy..inamin nya ckin.. wawa!!ouch un..pro ok lng.. gnun nman tlga role ng puso ko e..ang msktan at gwin aq pnkip butas ata lgi.. hayy.. martir tlga.. bsta!! ouch ang day na 2..cguro i shud start moving on lyk nothing happend between us??naks! (oi,wlang green s mga mkkbasa d2 ha?!) gud gurl 2!!bsta samin n lng un.. f ever n he's not 4 me tlga..cguro dis will be d last 2 fall and hurt by a person who is very close to my heart.. at ayko n tlga.. hayy...nkkiyak nman..lgi n lng kc aq nssktan.. kng alm ko lng n gnun.. sna hbang maaga p lng npigilan ko n..

nku po! hnd ko naapaly dis tym ang aking principle in lyf! "Prevention is better dan cure" hahahaha!! o di b? pgpuso n tlga umiral, d ko tlga mgwa iapply 2..ewan ko b!

enweiz, dmi p aq pangarap nman s buhay..pro mnsan sawa n aq s mga achivmnts at opportunitis as a servant-leader at frend.. kelan kya as in mggng hapi 2 d max ung hart ko? as in ung hnd n aq mssktan at mgppkamartir n tae! whOoOoO!! bhala na..

time wil tell...prioritis n muna..studis at responsibilities as a leader n muna ang hhrapin ko.. pro sna khit may konting inspirasyon sna n konting kilig nman pra ganahan aq s n gwin ang mga prioritis n 2..malungkot tlga ang pkramdm ko ngaun e..pro e2ng araw lng n 2..

bukas new day,new life..4 a change ulit!!hahaha!! bhala na.. dats life nga!!

a poem for HIM...

Someone

I’ve been longing to know your name,

For you are someone who is tame,

Someone with magic in eyes,

Someone with astounding ways,

That makes my nucleus beat…

You are someone, whose existence is unusual,

Someone whose face bright my day,

Someone with sense and money,

The one that can lift me up in pain,

That makes me go insane…

Long I have been asleep,

I open my eyes and found him at steep,

And I realized, I’m only dreaming,

For he is just an imaginary,

An impossible man who will never came to my life…

As I look at the view more closely,

I can see that there is my someone in reality,

Someone who is very different from my visionary,

A person who completes me when everything seems so cold,

And someone whom I feel protected…

Nothing shall I want, nothing shall I worry

For there’s no such a perfect guy

Someday, somehow I will meet him…

Someone who accepts me for what I am

He may not be perfect, but I know he can give the perfect love for me…

G0odbye...

to my first love...

i dont know if you'll have the chance to read this but...

i would like you to know something that i have been keeping...


"i love you"...


those are the hardest words to say...

but even more so...

it's much harder to tell someone that you love the words...


"i'm letting you go"...



i have been thinking 'bout you every single day

i was actually holding on... was waiting and hoping to be with you...

i would want to be right here waiting for you...

but... i have realized something last night...

i honestly love you... and i have to let you go...

i dont want to, but i must...



its funny, mm...

i used to fantasized of us together living happily forever...

sharing our dreams together, holding on to each other...

i even asked the Almighty to work on His miraculous ways for us to be together...

i have actually fixated my mind that soon we will be together...

and nothing would ever break us apart...

its quite funny... how i expected those things to really happen to us...


but now, though its really hard for me to do this...

i shall let you go...

and let God work in our lives in His own way...


why the heck will i do this?

...someone once quoted...

"if you really love someone, set him free...

if he does not come back to you, he is not meant for you;

but if he does, love him forever..."

mm, i really do love you...

i havent realized that until last night...

thats why i would like to finally set you free...



i wont find ways anymore to see you
i wont expect to hear anything from you anymore...

i wont get jealous if i would ever see you again holding the hands of another...

i wont open your profile to see if youve already placed, "in a relationship"... and check out whoever you are having a relationship with...

i wont say anything nonsense if in case we will be able to talk again...

i wont give any motives... i wont expect for you to notice me...

i wont, mm...



you probably are happy right now...

you probably already found someone...

i would just like to tell you that even if we wont be together...

please remember that i will always love you...



warm tears are continuously falling down to my cheeks...

but dont worry, mm..

those are tears of joy...

im happy that i finally learned to let you go...


i sure hope that youll be able to read this...

im sorry if i did not have the guts to send this to you personally...

at least if i post it in my blog theres only a 50% chance for you to be able to read it...

harr! lol for me... forgive me for my cowardice...

in case youll be able to read this... im happy to have let you know...

but if in case you wont... im still happy that i was able to write what my heart shouts out...



mm, once again...

id like to tell you,

i love you...

but i really have to let go now...

- nbasa ko lng po 2 s isang forum s isang website..mxado lng aq tnamaan at cguro i hav 2 post it 4 sme1 out there... hehehehe.. TAE noh?? corny..

hahahaha...nkktawa lng po kc..xmpre im starting of smething new na kya gnun n lng..cge na..tama na ang kacornihan n 2..kng cno man mkkbsa nito, wag kau tae ha..bsta!!ok?

haay!! at last!

waw! dis is my 1st tym n mgpost ng blog ko ha..saya nman.. kc lgi dmi gngawa..pero...

Hay! thanks God!! tpos n rn ang 2nd sem...

grbe super dmi nangyri dis sem s buhay ko..hnd ko alm kng pano ko iisipin..may msaya, may kabaliwan at kdramahan..mejo O.A. nga lng pro it gave a lesson for me.. kng iici[in ko lhat at bblikan ang mga araw n un, nkktawa n nkkiyak. pro i cant imagine n tpos n at nlagpasan ko mga un.. lgi ko n lng dinadaan s mga jokes ko at pgttrip s mga friends ko mga nangyyri s buhay ko.. but the truth is super sad ang pkiramdm ko ngaun..hnd ko alm kng bkit..

cguro nga ders somethng n makes me incomplete at dis tym..i dnt wat is dis pro bsta.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... tma n nga yn!!

well, vacation  n nman..mkkuwi n rn ako at last s aking lupang pnkkmmhal..sobrang tgal ko n hnd nkauwi s pangasinan ha?? dmi ko nmiss s lugar n un..im so excited to see the place agen at xmpre mga loved ones ko dun..hahahaha!! grbe..d ko p rn nkklimutn ang place n un.. hmanda kau pguwi ko dhil and2 n ang artista n pkikiligin ang sambayanang Pilipino! hahahaha!!

yan..mejo hapi n aq..d n aq sad khit papano.. ahhhhh..

basta.. im so thankful at nlagpasan ko n nman ang isng kabanata ng buhay ko.. n nging puro pgsubok at sobrang saya kc my mga dmating s buhay ko n kng twagin.."blessing in disguise" n sna hndi aq iiwan...